Rob Bankrobber (robbankrobber) wrote,
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We meet again Livejournal..

Hmm... I'm writing in my Livejournal. Which could mean two things, I'm really fucking bored, or just feeling like shit. Eh, I guess a little of both. It's a fairly cold, lonely night. U2 are on my TV, and that is the only thing that is keeping me from not getting in my car and driving somewhere pointless just for the sake of boredom. Back in the day, like 2 months ago, when I was feeling a little down, there was this person who was like my best friend, partner, teammate, soulmate, and was just always there for me, but that person has an ability to change their feelings like no one I've ever seen. Yeah, people do break up, but there's this thing called talking and hanging out that people who care about each other and have shared so many things together can do. Nah, the person who used to sleep next to me in my bed every night can't even talk to me or see me and pretty much treats me like I'm dead. It's ok though. Because I realized that someone who would do that to you is not even worth your time. At all. When you are so fucking close to someone, and mean so much to them, and then telling them to leave you alone, is fucking horrible. Someone who just can't be happy when things are good. Always looking for more, always needing something new and exciting. Fuck that. I always believed that when you find something that works and that is real stick with it. It's an extraordinary thing when two people can spend every second, literally, together for months and never fight or get sick of each other. That's an amazing thing. But some people's heads are always looking in different directions and always looking for something cooler, and I actually thought for one second some of this could've been my fault. Or that this is just what happens. I thought maybe this is just how people are. Then this one day at work this dude Sam and I were talking about music and shit and we were talking about U2 cause they are my favorite band in the world. We were just talking and shit quoting different songs and everything. Then a couple days later he comes in and says he found some U2 DVDs in his house and he gave them to me. I thought it was pretty fucking cool of him. It just made me start to think. This kid from work who I hardly know gives me U2 DVDs cause I mention that I liked them, but someone who I spent a year of my life with and who I used to share my bed with every night can't even fucking talk to me. Who's life is that important that you REFUSE to talk to or hang out with someone who was so close to you? It made me realize that people like that are just selfish and it hurts. They promise and swear that you mean so much and they won't end up like the last girl but they always fucking do. All I do is give every single thing I can give, and I really thought I had someone who would stick by me no matter what. I have no problem with being friends, but someone who was so in love with me for so long, won't even be my friend. What did I ever do? You would think that I am the biggest asshole ever or something. But I'm not. I gave everything I could. Anyway, enough about that. Like I said, not worth my time. My hands are god damn cold. This Star Wars blanket is not doing the trick. Any girls wanna come stay over and keep me warm and play Halo with me? That would be niiiice. Everyone has to go buy the new U2 cd on November 22. It will be the most amazing thing you have ever heard. Speaking of amazing music, you haven't heard much from good old TBR lately but don't you worry, big, big things on the way. Tomorrow belongs to me. Or, us, should I say. I think we are gonna do another video soon, maybe for "The Way Things Fade" which will be amazing cause it will star me. Hehe. Gary has been in the hospital the past couple days because he had a tumor removed from his hip again. I'm scared for him, but I know everything will be OK. I look at the stupid, petty things that usually upset me, and I see my best friend up in the hospital because he had a tumor, and it makes me look at things differently. My best friend getting surgery is so much more important then the stupid things I think about. I could be laying up in a hospital right now, with something alot worse wrong with me, but I'm not. I have a great life and great friends and I have everything to live for and nothing to be upset about. I have real friends, people who will never tell me to leave them alone, people who care about me, people who wouldn't make me feel bad about who I choose to be with. I am so grateful for the people who stick by my side through the good and the shitty times. I heard John Kerry say "What defines you as a person is what you spend every waking day trying to do" and I think he is right. Haha not that I exactly know what I'm trying to do, at least I know what I'm trying not to do and I know who I don't want to ever be. I know through all of the situations I have been in, I have given it my all and have never given up on anybody or anything. And that makes me happy. Whether it be my friends, a girl, or my band, to know through everything I've done, I was never the one who gave up or just walked away for no reason. What seperates people is those who fold under pressure and give up and think there is always something better out there, and those who realize how great something is and don't let it go no matter what the cost. People who have heart, and use it. And I think I fall into that category. And I think I am strong for doing that. Because though it has gotten me hurt on a number of occasions, it will pay off one day. And if you have just read that whole mess I just wrote, Haha, then I thank you for that. Because I don't even know what I am talking about these days anymore. And Bono is about to sing "With or Without You", which deserves my full attention. Goodnight Livejournal, and world.
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Anonymous

October 19 2004, 00:35:41 UTC 12 years ago

ill come lay with rob from the bankrobbers mmm hmmmmm!!
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seems like things have been hard for you lately. and im not going to sit here and tell you things like "im here for you if you need somone" because iknow that i am the last person you would go to. after all i am a fan and thats cool. so, instead i will leave ya with a little bit of me.



- Toy Chest -

If you don’t want me
Take my batteries out
They are still good

If you don’t want me
Pass me off
I’m sure someone else could find something to use me for
If only for my parts

If you don’t want me
Tell me to just go
Wind me up tight
And send me on my way

If you don’t want me
Break me
Burn me
Smash me to pieces
Let me know that you are finally done
Playing with me and my emotions

Put me back in box
In the back of your closet
Under your bed
Don't ever take me out again.




feel better, and i hope to see you soon. things will start too look up one day. i never thought i would see the day come, until i actually opened my eyes.
your best friend is home .. i'm feeling good.. come over lets watch some cheesy movies, laugh at stupid shit, eat food, and stay up late as hell like we always do then when i'm able to go out we can hit up the Pussy Parades again love ya

-Gary
Haha my best friend is black and he is the man!!
for some reason i feel like crying after reading that.

i look back and realize how BAD i was. Not that that's even remotely what you were talking about, but I'm just thinking about the messed up shit both of us used to do to eachother, but you're right: you never once gave up on us. And it just makes me sad that you actually DID love me but I was like Jackei, I always wanted something new and different. i think i've done that with like every boyfriend i have ever broken up with: fucked them over because i wanted to see what else was out there, not realizing that they actually cared.

it makes me feel so shitty about myself.
or maybe i'm just exaggerating cause today is a BAD fucking day.

anyways, i have to go get in the shower cause me and you decided we are going to get food somewhere with the $5 we both have. haha.


talk to you later dudeeeeeeeee..... =P
What can I say.. I'm a great guy.. haha... And one day I will meet a great girl who really will stick by me no matter what and not just promise they will and then leave me...


But I will say that you never refused to talk to me when I needed someone and I guess you are kind of cool for that... Kind of..

: )

Talk to you later... dork..

kind of?....

you KNOW I am the coolest... ever

don't you forget it, boy.

I like your Shoprite apron... lol jk
You dont kno me, and im not stalking you. i actually dont read ur journal but you wrote the longest entry ive ever seen in my life so i had to read it. and you took the words right out of my mouth...........thats actually really fuckin wierd. well...yeah man u just gotta except the fact that no matter how much you care about someone and no matter what you do for someone, chances are they arent gonna do the same for you. theres only one person out there who will, and if everyone treated everyone the way they should, then there would be no such thing as love, so be patient :) peaces......
Yeah I know.. It fuckin hurts when you are so close to someone and they are like your best friend and they just disappear and become someone else totally. Thanks for reading my long entry, haha.